Energy Level

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Greetings!!

I am hoping this weekend served as the needed rest that I was in dire need of. I wanted to explain a little at my online absence and lack of posts as of late. As I mentioned in an earlier blog I had received a letter from my mother that was...less than pleasant.

Unfortunately my parents and I have battled for quite some time. Without going into too much detail, the biological family I was born into has been plagued with much trauma and unhealthiness (emotional, mental and physical) over the years. This has deeply affected my relationship with my parents, and when I left the religion I was raised with, to which they are forever faithful and loyal to, it served as a crushing blow to our already weak relationship.

Despite my efforts over the years to maintain contact and some kind of correspondence, after a recent visit to my house, my mother has since cut everything off other than in cases of emergencies. For me, this, in addition to some statements made comparing me to a very abusive person, has proven to be the straw that broke the camels back.

Over a year ago a therapist I was seeing at the time had recommended that I terminate my relationship, entirely, with my parents. For the past year I have tried to find an alternative.

However I have now come to the realization that I must move on and unfortunately that will in fact equal a permanent disassociation with my parental units. I have expunged so much energy and love in attempts to be a family, and time and again have been met with the same response, "We love you, but must remain loyal to Jehovah."

Because of how I live my life, as in not devoting it to serving Jehovah (their god) nor living by his standards (I do not live by the bible in my life actions, I do not wait until marriage to have relations, along with many small and miscellaneous items) they follow the counsel of their religion, as shown in the bible, and refuse to associate with me.

October 30, 2008 will mark six years since I left their religion, their god and their terms of "right" and "wrong." All this time I've had the fantasy in the back of my mind that one day, for the first time really, we could actually be a family. In fact for much of the time I thought to myself that their distancing from me was something a result of something I had been doing, something wrong with me, hence causing them to shun me.

Finally I have come to the conviction that no matter what the consequence was, whether it was life in prison, the death penalty, sudden death at the hand of god, or even an eternity in a Catholic hell fire rubbing shoulders with the worst of humanity...there simply is nothing that would come between nor somehow stop me from being there with and for my child. A child is not only such an immense privilege but also my co-creation. Literally a part of me. An entire self choosing, independent person, who came from you, can choose for themselves yet still craves your love, attention and approval as a parent. It truly is a magnificent relationship.

So I have decided that in all things considered, the bottom line is I deserve better. And my constant seeking of approval and affection from two people that choose their faith over their son is simply and literally not worth the energy I've been putting into it.

I do not judge their decision. That is truly their own free will to do with as they choose. Just as it is my own free will to choose not to be a part of their decision anymore. All this time I have been letting myself feel this hurt over their personal choices.

Now with my spiritual path very much coming to an abundant life and fruition, I truly don't have that energy to spare on them anymore. There are plenty of people here on this beautiful Earth that are happy and inviting of the love and energy I have to give...and I can assure you giving to such ones is far more fulfilling for me.

I have therefore drafted a letter that I will be sending to my parents (no siblings as I am an only child) explaining all of this to them. The writing of this letter along with all the internal feelings and thoughts has SEVERELY depleted my energy.

I have been so weak I haven't been able to do any energy work or practice, my meditation techniques have been much less effective than usual. However I got some much deserved and much needed rest this weekend, as well as much encouragement from other old souls from times past, in sleep, that truly has given me the push I needed to get back on track.

I look forward to upcoming posts and the discussions they will bring with them.

Much love to all!

feenx

Divine Cosmos - What is Ascension?

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Greetings!!

David Wilcock maintains a website, Divine Cosmos, which I have recently discovered. So far it is QUITE an encouraging and and exciting source of information! What is discussed below is excerpt from an article on his site. Everything that we have discussed thus far, keep in mind, as you read the below information.

Also if you click on the title of this blog it will take you to the full article, in which he also speaks of a reading he did for someone, and was able to channel an entity which I have NO doubt will grab your attention, quite assuredly.

ENJOY!

Divine Cosmos - What is Ascension?: "Is “all this Ascension stuff” for real, or is it just the imbecile fantasy of people deeply divorced from reality? Here is what the media never tells you, at least not all at once.

We all know that the Earth is experiencing global warming and other changes, whether the petroleum giants like it or not. Just read the headlines.

What we may NOT know is the following:

SUN: The Sun’s magnetic field is over 230 percent stronger now than it was at the beginning of the 1900s, and its overall energetic activity has sizably increased, creating a frenzy of activity that continues to embarrass NASA’s official predictions.

VENUS: Venus is now glowing in the dark, as is Jupiter’s moon Io.

EARTH: In the last 30 years, Earth’s icecaps have thinned out by as much as 40 percent. Quite inexplicably, just since 1997 the structure of the Earth has shifted from being slightly more egg-shaped, or elongated at the poles, to more pumpkin-shaped, or flattened at the poles. No one at NASA has even bothered to try to explain this yet. Link to full article at NASA.

MARS: The icecaps of Mars noticeably melted just within one year, causing 50-percent changes in surface features. Atmospheric density had risen by 200 percent above previous observations as of 1997.
JUPITER: Jupiter has become so highly energized that it is now surrounded by a visibly glowing donut tube of energy in the path of the moon Io. The size of Jupiter’s magnetic field has more than doubled since 1992.

SATURN: Saturn’s polar regions have been noticeably brightening, and its magnetic field strength increasing.

URANUS: According to NASA’s Voyager II space probe, Uranus and Neptune both appear to have had recent magnetic pole shifts – 60 degrees for Uranus and 50 for Neptune.

NEPTUNE: Neptune has become 40 percent brighter in infrared since 1996, and is fully 100-percent brighter in certain areas. Also, Neptune’s moon Triton has had a “very large percentage increase” in atmospheric pressure and temperature, comparable to a 22-degree Fahrenheit increase on Earth.

PLUTO: As of September 2002, Pluto has experienced a 300-percent increase in its atmospheric pressure in the last 14 years, while also becoming noticeably darker in color.

Everything you have just read is referenced from mainstream media sources, and the full list of relevant links can be found within chapter eight of Divine Cosmos. The whole key to mass media control is to ensure that these facts are never seen all at the same time. It becomes “all too weird” once we add in the ever-increasingly stressful socio-political events on Earth, such as a “perpetual war against terrorism,” with the smirking Bush as Wild-West-Messiah-In-Chief playing “Bring ‘em On for Armageddon,” along with the fulfillment of many other ancient prophecies, including those of the Judeo-Christian Bible.

Here at DivineCosmos.com, we have freely published a compelling scientific case for there being a Convergence, Shift of the Ages, dimensional shift or Ascension now underway. When this solar-system-wide process is complete, estimated to be within the timeframe of 2010-2013, we can expect an “Omega Point” event that is literally “beyond our wildest dreams.” The changes in the Solar System are only the more obvious and physical result of these changes, where the energy of consciousness itself is being upgraded, causing mass evolution to occur.

But, alas. Undeniable Solar System changes aside, isn’t this all just too good to be true, on this Bush-whacked planet?

Why not? Wouldn’t something like this be a nice surprise, to say the least? What other explanation fits for the whole Solar System going through this metamorphosis, while similarly huge events are happening at an accelerating rate in Earth society? How about including the fact that almost every established body of historical spiritual teaching, from all cultures, has some form of prediction about this event that is now coming true?

(end of excerpt)

Again, I strongly advise reading the entire post :)

New Blogs

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Greetings dear ones! I apologize for not having any fresh posts this past week. There have been some things in this 3d world that have been taking up my attention and energy. I had planned on posting some new articles today, have several in mind and in the works. However I received a letter from my mother that is.....disheartening, to say the least. It has certainly stolen my enthusiasm today.

In any event, there will be some new posts coming that I will be excited to write, and hopefully you will be excited to read.

One of the new topics to come will be on Channeling. I recently had quite an interesting experience that I wanted to share.

Until next time!

The Bible - Divinely Inspired and Complete? Part I

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Greetings dear ones!

Recently in an article posted on The Spirit Guide mention was made of a conversation in which judgment was passed because ones path and beliefs were not in tune with the Bible. As one brought up in a strict religious environment with the ultimate importance and life decisions placed on the Bible, I thought it would be a great opportunity to begin a series on the Bible.

In this series we will discuss the Bible as we know it today, the variety of translations, differences in these translations and people’s reasons for following the teachings in the Bible. This first set of information, though at times can be a little dull, will provide a crucial foundation for the information that will follow.

What is this information? Very simply put, with the aid of history one can see precisely where any inspiration from a higher power changed to what man thought was best in regards to the Bible. Did you know that the Bible as we have it today is incomplete? Yes in fact both for the Old and New Testament that there are many, many more writings. I will show you what these are, where they were found, by whom, when and why it was they were not included in the Bible canon.

First and foremost let me make two points perfectly clear:

1. All statements of fact WILL be backed up with reference(s) for you to research on your own. I would never purpose to present myself as some kind of independent “authority” on the Bible. Any knowledge I have of the subject is from my own reading, not my own ideas.
2. My official opinion of the Bible should me made clear, in all fairness, right from the beginning. I see the Bible simply as….INK ON PAPER. As such, like many books, there can be a wonderful message and statements of fact and/or wisdom. This does not mean however, like every other book, that it equals an unquestionable authority for living our lives.

Again, my opinions are not based on my own bias but rather as a result of the reading I’ve done and will be sharing with you.

SO, let’s give everyone some great, eyebrow raising questions to pose to your favorite pastor, minister, elder or priest :)

Where to Begin?

For thousands of years the Bible has been an authoritative source to man, spanning the globe, a collection of translations in a multitude of languages. Wars have been fought over it’s contents and teachings. People have been imprisoned, tortured and burned alive for displaying characteristics presumed to be the work of the Devil.



In the modern world ones interpretation of and practice of belief in the Bible has affected elections as well as served as a basis for central powers to take control of countries, to create and change laws.

Indeed, based on human history, the Bible has shaped, for good and for bad, peoples lives. Yes the very existence, actions and purpose of humankind is explained, instructed and judged all within the Bible.

What are some examples of human conflicts over religion, and hence the Bible? The first that comes to my mind is the Crusades . Other popular examples are the French Wars of Religion, the Reconquista , Catholics versus Protestants in England and my all time favorite World War II and the Nazi Bible.



Yes that’s right, Adolf Hitler who some believe was actually a Christian , re-wrote passages in the Bible to enhance his teachings of the Aryan agenda. When I first read of this, the question I asked myself is how could people actually follow and believe such teachings in this day and age? Anyone outside of Germany surely would see through such propaganda.

Well my friend, can you really say that throughout history there have not been other, similar changes made for similar reasons? Do you know, without question, the Bible sitting on your bookshelf right now has not been similarly tampered with? Did you in fact research, beyond the printing on the dust jacked of your Bible, how your particular translation came to be about and why it is better for you than another?

As we know it today, in the Western Christian world, the Bible consists of 66 writings, or individual books. There are 39 books which make up the Old Testament beginning with Genesis and ending with Malachi. The New Testament begins with the gospels named as Matthew, Mark, Luke and John and ends with the book of Revelation.

Common translations include The King James version, the New International Version, the New Living Translation, the New American Standard , the New Revised Standard Version, Young’s Literal Translation and the New Jerusalem Bible. Less common, though mass produced, are the Book of Mormon, which Mormons use congruently with the Bible, and the New World Translation used by Jehovah’s Witnesses.

Topic #1: The Bible - Divinely Inspired?

The first topic, and by far the most relevant to our discussion, is what about the Bible sets it as an authority? Such an authority that masses upon masses of people have used as their guide for living their daily lives?

2 Timothy 3:16 (New International Version)
All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness,

2 Timothy 3:16 (New World Translation)
All Scripture is inspired of God and beneficial for teaching, for reproving, for setting things straight, for disciplining in righteousness,

2 Timothy 3:16 (King James Version)
All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness:

2 Timothy 3:16 (Young's Literal Translation)
every Writing [is] God-breathed, and profitable for teaching, for conviction, for setting aright, for instruction that [is] in righteousness,



What is listed above is a very simple basis and example of one idea, that of divine inspiration. In fact in ONE sentence it is declared as fact that an entire body of work the composition of which spanned many years and had many different writers ALL comes from God. By that very statement it is asserted that all scripture is above reproof, above question and is to be viewed as nothing less than the very voice of God. Who are mere humans to ignore such a force?

Though followers of the Bible agree that it is infallible, their actions show otherwise. How many Christian denominations are there in world? Certainly more than I can name off the top of my head, yet they as Christians all believe in Jesus Christ as their savior, hence their salvation is a result of their unbreakable faith in him. They read the same Bible, yet come to different conclusions on practice. Why is this?

Unfortunately not all verses in the Bible are as clear in content as 2 Timothy 3:16. Just take a few minutes to peruse the book of Revelation and this will be abundantly clear. In addition the age old debate of accuracy of translations and application of the Bible has caused many to leave churches, or even start their own.

In the above examples you can see very MILD examples of this. Take for instance the difference in the phrase, “profitable for teaching,” as referenced in the Young’s Literal Translation and “profitable for doctrine” as used in the King James version.


Dictionary.com
defines the root word of teaching, teach, as “to impart knowledge of or skill in; give instruction in.”

Dictionary.com defines doctrine as “a particular principle, position, or policy taught or advocated, as of a religion or government: Catholic doctrines; the Monroe Doctrine.”

Imagine if you only had access to the King James version and instead of seeing the Bible as a device meant to teach, it was a tool of religious or governmental policy. Certainly that is a quite a contrast, affecting your life, based on a single word.

The King James version of the Bible contains approximately 783,137 words.
(as a comparison Tolstoy’s epic War and Peace contains approximately 560,000 words.) Therefore, strictly speaking in a numbers sense, that is 783,137 possible variations from one translation to the next. As we saw above, even a difference in a single word can cause a different meaning for the reader.

So then, not only does one scripture tell the reader they are reading the words of God, but it also can either be the difference between teachings and policy.

Surely one of your questions is similar to mine. How can the contents within a book certify that same book as authoritative? E.g. If J.K. Rowling asserted that the Harry Potter series was not actually a work of fiction but instead a true account of a real person, would you believe her? Or instead would you want outside opinions and proof to show what the truth really is?

So then why do the masses take the Bible as inspired by God? What is contained within the Bible, not just what religious leaders say, that convinces them it is from God?

This will be the topic of the next article in the series. We will see examples of scriptures claiming divine inspiration, as well as examples from other sources, outside of the Bible giving similar information, yet that are not viewed as divinely inspired.

An example of LOVE

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As a follow up to my last post I present this story. This very dear man chose to step outside his "known" path. The very definition of his life goal, to achieve something was greater than himself. Can you honestly say the end result was not worth the sacrifice?

JUST because it is not in your known plan, or perhaps it creates discomfort with yourself or seems too hard...does that somehow negate the importance, or relevance what needs to be done?

Do NOT submerge the uncomfortable. The unknown. The fear that lies in us ALL.

Listen to what you feel, scary as it may be at times. You've breathed before. You've bled before. You've chosen to do what is tough, what the herd cannot even fathom.

Continue on your path dear one. Follow this mans example.

The Unwanted

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Greetings dear ones!

This is a very crucial time for us all. INDEED. As you begin your awakening path you will feel moments of distress. You will see steps ahead of you on your path that are very much unwanted...yet they are vital.

Do NOT shut these out. Listen to the imprints on yourself, explaining the reasons for such perceived "wrongs."

What you THINK you want may not be the actual course of your path. Before feeling the imposition to self, you must look at the affect of the whole.

Just as discomfort in the human body can lead to realization of a deeper problem, and that solution...Your own dismay is part of a bigger picture. Do not look at only the scene of your discomfort, but the entire film.

YOU, dear lightworker, are part of the source. The merits of your work will show themselves, despite the discomfort you now sense.

Peace be with us all.

Are You A Lightworker?

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Another series that will is coming on Indigo Insight will about lightworkers. As a friend and fellow indigo recently told me, she tends to stay away from using the term "indigo" to refer to herself or anyone else because of the general conception of elitism in indigos (I feel this is due to the way the media has presented the information). Instead she uses the term lightworker. (Some also use the term energy worker.)

As I have mentioned in my earlier posts in the Indigo Child series, indigos are no "better" or more privileged than anyone else. In fact, it can be quite a tough road at times. It simply means our very stubborn nature has led us to keep a bit more awareness each incarnation than perhaps those around us. Plain and simple.

EVERY single human can choose to be a lightworker. All will have different skills that can be shared with humanity. How is that EVERYONE can be a lightworker? Because we are all connected as a collective consciousness.

A wonderful analogy was used by a dear friend of mine, who continues on her path of awakening. When explaining this idea to her, she thought of it as a cell in a body. A cell is unique and very much it's own entity, however it also is part of a vast collective and ever changing whole, which is our body.

Therefore, even those who are not old souls (or "onetimers" as some refer to them) can choose to be lightworkers in their life.

In an effort to bring more attention to this wonderful work, I will posting a multi part series on what it means to truly be a lightworker and the wonderful things that have and can be accomplished.



The video below does a wonderful job at breaking things down very simply. As a warm up to upcoming discussion I recommend watching it.

Physically Sharing Human Energy

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Physically Sharing Human Energy

Do you REALLY want to know someone?

Several people have recently asked me what I mean in conversation or email when I talk about “sharing energy.” Some have taken that simply as two people spending time together, hence their natural energies are sharing. While this is true there can be MUCH more to enjoy from it.

Have you heard of Reiki? Many are aware of it, as it is an ancient Japanese healing technique. Recently more and more practitioners have spring up all over the U.S.

The same principles related to Reiki apply to each of us. Referencing back to my article on auras, we all have a natural bio field and energy that flows through us as living creatures. This energy is like anything else inherent to us, such as emotions and intent, and can be shared with others.

To be quite honest, it is almost like a drug in it’s addictiveness. One must be open within themselves to truly feel this energy sharing, but I assure there will be absolutely NO question when you do feel it. It is a vastly unique physical sensation.

First, you must focus your energy, similar to what you do in meditation or breathing techniques. I personally visualize my energy inside by body as a glowing entity, which grows stronger with my desire.

Second, we all have a sending hand and a receiving hand. I will give you the traditional values for this as I personally am a bit odd and use the same hand for both. The majority of people write with their dominant hand. Your dominant hand is your sending hand and your other hand is for receiving.

Sit or stand next to your friend, hold your sending hand closely over (or directly on if you feel more comfortable that way) their receiving hand. Combine the two above steps. Have your energy focused and harnessed, then as a very easy and natural thought choose to use your sending hand as a conduit, similar to an umbilical chord, to transfer your energy into them. Do not try to focus too much. It should be a very fluid thought and emotion. Just as focusing too hard on a thought resulting in the thought being forgotten. Just let yourself do it naturally.

Everybody’s energy is different, because it is a signature of that individual, so the feelings the receiver gets can vary. Those participating are literally giving and receiving themselves. Ones entire statement of self, their inner self, their intentions, heart motivations etc. are given and received. It is like implanting yourself into someone’s brain and emotions in the same action.

The first time I did this I was receiving energy from my teacher. Her signature was very strong, and it reminded me of how your hand feels when it’s asleep, only with a much warmer temperature. Another friend’s energy was cool and calming, almost breezy.

As you practice this technique you will gain more and more control and be able to make different shapes with your energy. My teacher and I will play games where she makes a certain shape in my hand and I have to guess what that shape is. She also can send her energy out of specific fingers. Visualize how fingers look as they type on a keyboard, or play a piano. She can make different strengths of energies from those individual fingers, and acting as though she is playing the piano prick your hand at precise spots, to where you only feel her energy where she just pricked you, like with a needle.

As I said earlier, it is very addictive. It is unlike any other human feeling you have ever felt. The first time I experienced it, the first thought that raced through my mind was “I’m home.”

You can also practice with yourself. Use the same technique, only instead of sending to someone else send to your own receiving hand. I use this practice personally, and usually end up playing with my own personal “beach ball” of energy.

It will further cement to you the power of your own spirit, mind and body. It can help to cleanse yourself. Just as doing strength training or exercise is good your body, energy work is good for your mind and soul.

Try it out and let me know your experience with it!

What IS an Indigo Child? – BY an Indigo Child - Part II

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What IS an Indigo Child? – BY an Indigo Child

Part II:

Indigo Awakening: Welcome to the Matrix



Man of you have seen the movie The Matrix Any who haven’t I strongly recommend seeing it.

The process that you have started, or may begin at some point, is much like what is described and portrayed in the first Matrix movie.

As Neo stands in a crowded club, waiting for something to happen, in his first encounter with Trinity she tells him, “The truth is out there, Neo. It's looking for you and it will find you, if you want it to.”

How many of us have felt that, many times, throughout our life? Something, a truth, an answer that is so close we can almost taste it, yet it remains aloof.

What I’d like to do now is insert a portion of The Matrix script. At this point in the film it is the first face to face encounter Neo has with Morpheus, and I feel it sets a good mood for our topic.



MORPHEUS
I imagine, right now, you must be
feeling a bit like Alice, tumbling
down the rabbit hole?

NEO
You could say that.

MORPHEUS
I can see it in your eyes. You
have the look of a man who accepts
what he sees because he is
expecting to wake up.

A smile, razor-thin, curls the corner of his lips.


MORPHEUS
Ironically, this is not far from
the truth. But I'm getting ahead
of myself. Can you tell me, Neo,
why are you here?

NEO
You're Morpheus, you're a legend.
Most hackers would die to meet
you.

MORPHEUS
Yes. Thank you. But I think we
both know there's more to it than
that. Do you believe in fate, Neo?

NEO
No.

MORPHEUS
Why not?

NEO
Because I don't like the idea that
I'm not in control of my life.

MORPHEUS
I know exactly what you mean.

Again, that smile that could cut glass.

MORPHEUS
Let me tell you why you are here.
You are here because you have the
gift.

NEO
What gift?

MORPHEUS
I've watched you, Neo. You do not
use a computer like a tool. You
use it like it was part of
yourself. What you can do inside
a computer is not normal. I know.
I've seen it. What you do is
magic.

Neo shrugs.

NEO
It's not magic.

MORPHEUS
But it is, Neo. It is. How else
would you describe what has been
happening to you?

He leans forward.

MORPHEUS
We are trained in this world to
accept only what is rational and
logical. Have you ever wondered
why?

Neo shakes his head.

MORPHEUS
As children, we do not separate
the possible from the impossible
which is why the younger a mind is
the easier it is to free while a
mind like yours can be very
difficult.

NEO
Free from what?

MORPHEUS
From the Matrix.

Neo locks at his eyes but only sees a reflection of
himself.

MORPHEUS
Do you want to know what it is,
Neo?

Neo swallows and nods his head.

MORPHEUS

It's that feeling you have had all
your life. That feeling that
something was wrong with the
world. You don't know what it is
but it's there, like a splinter in
your mind, driving you mad,
driving you to me. But what is
it?

The LEATHER CREAKS as he leans
back.

MORPHEUS
The Matrix is everywhere, it's all
around us, here even in this room.
You can see it out your window, or
on your television. You feel it
when you go to work, or go to
church or pay your taxes. It is
the world that has been pulled
over your eyes to blind you from
the truth.

NEO
What truth?

MORPHEUS
That you are a slave, Neo. That
you, like everyone else, was born
into bondage...
... kept inside a prison that you
cannot smell, taste, or touch. A
prison for your mind.

Outside, the WIND BATTERS a loose PANE of glass.

MORPHEUS
Unfortunately, no one can be told
what the Matrix is. You have to
see it for yourself.

NEO
How?

MORPHEUS
Hold out your hands.

In Neo's right hand, Morpheus drops a red pill.

MORPHEUS
This is your last chance. After
this, there is no going back.

In his left, a blue pill.

MORPHEUS
You take the blue pill and the
story ends. You wake in your bed
and you believe whatever you want
to believe.

The pills in his open hands are reflected in the glasses.

MORPHEUS
You take the red pill and you stay
in Wonderland and I show you how
deep the rabbit-hole goes.

Neo feels the smooth skin of the capsules, with the
moisture growing in his palms.

MORPHEUS
Remember that all I am offering is
the truth. Nothing more.
Neo opens his mouth and swallows the red pill. The
Cheshire smile returns.

MORPHEUS
Follow me.


My guess, dear ones, is that as you watched this movie, or even read the words for the first time here, that you get a very familiar sense, a feeling you can’t quite explain.

It is true! Right now you are peeking into the rabbit’s hole, and just not quite sure what to make of it. Following the Matrix parallel imagine yourself as Neo. Sitting there, a foreign voice speaking to you, emotions enveloping your very being…unknown to you by your logical mind, yet familiar to you in a way you can’t quite explain.

This feeling is a combination of several elements. This is the programming in your brain, in fact in the very matter that makes up your body, calling out to you. This is your over soul speaking to you and it is the WEALTH of knowledge gathered from all your past incarnations rising to the surface. And the best part, I say smiling, is that it’s ALL a part of YOU and who “you” are, right NOW.

In this parallel as Neo, imagine that Morpheus is an extension of yourself. You are having a two sided conversation, fact as presented to you against the “facts” you think you know, but feel otherwise about.

As an old soul, by which I mean a soul that has lived on Earth before this moment, you have gained lifetimes of knowledge. Each time that you incarnate, that you are inserted into The Matrix so to speak, you start fresh in the physical realm, yet very developed in the spiritual realm.

For Indigos this can be a very tough life experience. The outer world that you know and see everyone around you operating in, something that you are “supposed” to be a part of, seems foreign to you. You feel out of place. At times even just walking down the street or in a crowd of people you are at odds with those around you, you feel different.

The thoughts that cross your mind and emotions that swell you are unable to explain where they come from, or make any sense of how to apply them.

At times, when your guard is down, you feel as though you will go on to do great things. Not just in a secular sense as this world promotes, such as going to school, having a career and being a successful capitalist. No, you feel as though this fire that burns inside of you, if only able to let it loose, will serve to help the whole world and no one can stop you because your conviction is so strong.

You feel there is always more you must do. Many accomplishments, big and small, you pass over as not enough.

It is as if you are in a foreign country. Everyone bustles around you speaking a language that you just don’t quite understand, and if only people would listen, and you, the REAL you, could speak things would suddenly be different.

Have you ever felt that way? If so, then believe me, you are not alone.

Why is this? This is because, to use the Matrix parallel again, there is a program that you have written for yourself, and it specifically requires you to feel this way.

That’s right. You are in fact a human alarm clock, ticking away until the appropriate time when your internal alarm goes off, and you begin to feed yourself with the knowledge you hold from other lives. This knowledge is immeasurable. It is information that, just like you felt but couldn’t explain, can and does change the world.

How so? Again, reference the Matrix. Neo was brought out of the Matrix by those who were aware of the reality. They put him in a place to show him. They taught him what they had learned. What happened? The very things that he was “learning” he began to excel, and exceed at.

You are living in a spiritual matrix. The world and it’s religions and politics and power has conditioned all of us to believe something, to call it reality, when in all facts of the matter it is nothing more than a farce.

The love, the knowledge, the pure intent and the yearning for connection and the power that you hold is the reality. As an Indigo you are here to usher in a new level of thought, a new level of emotion, a new level of connectedness that until now people refused to accept.

That is why you, yes YOU, CHOSE to be here. At this place, at this time. At some point in your history you have the conscious CHOICE that this is what you wanted to do. You would not be here otherwise. Which is why, until you do what you set out to, there is a hole within yourself that can’t be filled with anything else.

Unfortunately, waking up to our spiritual path is not as easy as simply taking a pill. It is something that usually is preceeded by life dilemmas and/or changes. We begin on a path when in fact we don’t know where we’re stepping. Perhaps it is opening our minds to new thoughts, new teachings or new beliefs. It could be growth as a person, such as overcoming an addiction, a secular life course, discontinuing a bad relationship (romantic or otherwise).

Many people find themselves at a life crossroads. Some choose to change. Some choose to carry on. Neither is right nor wrong. It is about the individual, and choice.

When one fully chooses, as in from the very and deepest definition of who they are, to change and open up, that is when you are opening your door. Your alarm clock is going off, screaming at you in fact, to WAKE UP and see that things are DIFFERENT than what you’ve come to accept. What people tell you is real. What society, the masses, the great herd of humans accept simply as how things are.

When that happens, as a very old and wise Indigo recently told me with a contagious smirk on her young face, “It’s a wild ride isn’t it?”

So my dear friend, welcome to your spiritual matrix! Once you take that step, there is no going back. It is a decision we all must make. In fact not making a decision, or saying “I’ll wait and see what happens,” is choosing to do nothing. There is no right and wrong. No black and white. No good and evil.

In this sense…it is all about you and that alarm clock you set. Are you going to wake up, or are you going to keep hitting snooze?


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