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Energy Level

Posted by feenx





Greetings!!

I am hoping this weekend served as the needed rest that I was in dire need of. I wanted to explain a little at my online absence and lack of posts as of late. As I mentioned in an earlier blog I had received a letter from my mother that was...less than pleasant.

Unfortunately my parents and I have battled for quite some time. Without going into too much detail, the biological family I was born into has been plagued with much trauma and unhealthiness (emotional, mental and physical) over the years. This has deeply affected my relationship with my parents, and when I left the religion I was raised with, to which they are forever faithful and loyal to, it served as a crushing blow to our already weak relationship.

Despite my efforts over the years to maintain contact and some kind of correspondence, after a recent visit to my house, my mother has since cut everything off other than in cases of emergencies. For me, this, in addition to some statements made comparing me to a very abusive person, has proven to be the straw that broke the camels back.

Over a year ago a therapist I was seeing at the time had recommended that I terminate my relationship, entirely, with my parents. For the past year I have tried to find an alternative.

However I have now come to the realization that I must move on and unfortunately that will in fact equal a permanent disassociation with my parental units. I have expunged so much energy and love in attempts to be a family, and time and again have been met with the same response, "We love you, but must remain loyal to Jehovah."

Because of how I live my life, as in not devoting it to serving Jehovah (their god) nor living by his standards (I do not live by the bible in my life actions, I do not wait until marriage to have relations, along with many small and miscellaneous items) they follow the counsel of their religion, as shown in the bible, and refuse to associate with me.

October 30, 2008 will mark six years since I left their religion, their god and their terms of "right" and "wrong." All this time I've had the fantasy in the back of my mind that one day, for the first time really, we could actually be a family. In fact for much of the time I thought to myself that their distancing from me was something a result of something I had been doing, something wrong with me, hence causing them to shun me.

Finally I have come to the conviction that no matter what the consequence was, whether it was life in prison, the death penalty, sudden death at the hand of god, or even an eternity in a Catholic hell fire rubbing shoulders with the worst of humanity...there simply is nothing that would come between nor somehow stop me from being there with and for my child. A child is not only such an immense privilege but also my co-creation. Literally a part of me. An entire self choosing, independent person, who came from you, can choose for themselves yet still craves your love, attention and approval as a parent. It truly is a magnificent relationship.

So I have decided that in all things considered, the bottom line is I deserve better. And my constant seeking of approval and affection from two people that choose their faith over their son is simply and literally not worth the energy I've been putting into it.

I do not judge their decision. That is truly their own free will to do with as they choose. Just as it is my own free will to choose not to be a part of their decision anymore. All this time I have been letting myself feel this hurt over their personal choices.

Now with my spiritual path very much coming to an abundant life and fruition, I truly don't have that energy to spare on them anymore. There are plenty of people here on this beautiful Earth that are happy and inviting of the love and energy I have to give...and I can assure you giving to such ones is far more fulfilling for me.

I have therefore drafted a letter that I will be sending to my parents (no siblings as I am an only child) explaining all of this to them. The writing of this letter along with all the internal feelings and thoughts has SEVERELY depleted my energy.

I have been so weak I haven't been able to do any energy work or practice, my meditation techniques have been much less effective than usual. However I got some much deserved and much needed rest this weekend, as well as much encouragement from other old souls from times past, in sleep, that truly has given me the push I needed to get back on track.

I look forward to upcoming posts and the discussions they will bring with them.

Much love to all!

feenx

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Physically Sharing Human Energy

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Physically Sharing Human Energy

Do you REALLY want to know someone?

Several people have recently asked me what I mean in conversation or email when I talk about “sharing energy.” Some have taken that simply as two people spending time together, hence their natural energies are sharing. While this is true there can be MUCH more to enjoy from it.

Have you heard of Reiki? Many are aware of it, as it is an ancient Japanese healing technique. Recently more and more practitioners have spring up all over the U.S.

The same principles related to Reiki apply to each of us. Referencing back to my article on auras, we all have a natural bio field and energy that flows through us as living creatures. This energy is like anything else inherent to us, such as emotions and intent, and can be shared with others.

To be quite honest, it is almost like a drug in it’s addictiveness. One must be open within themselves to truly feel this energy sharing, but I assure there will be absolutely NO question when you do feel it. It is a vastly unique physical sensation.

First, you must focus your energy, similar to what you do in meditation or breathing techniques. I personally visualize my energy inside by body as a glowing entity, which grows stronger with my desire.

Second, we all have a sending hand and a receiving hand. I will give you the traditional values for this as I personally am a bit odd and use the same hand for both. The majority of people write with their dominant hand. Your dominant hand is your sending hand and your other hand is for receiving.

Sit or stand next to your friend, hold your sending hand closely over (or directly on if you feel more comfortable that way) their receiving hand. Combine the two above steps. Have your energy focused and harnessed, then as a very easy and natural thought choose to use your sending hand as a conduit, similar to an umbilical chord, to transfer your energy into them. Do not try to focus too much. It should be a very fluid thought and emotion. Just as focusing too hard on a thought resulting in the thought being forgotten. Just let yourself do it naturally.

Everybody’s energy is different, because it is a signature of that individual, so the feelings the receiver gets can vary. Those participating are literally giving and receiving themselves. Ones entire statement of self, their inner self, their intentions, heart motivations etc. are given and received. It is like implanting yourself into someone’s brain and emotions in the same action.

The first time I did this I was receiving energy from my teacher. Her signature was very strong, and it reminded me of how your hand feels when it’s asleep, only with a much warmer temperature. Another friend’s energy was cool and calming, almost breezy.

As you practice this technique you will gain more and more control and be able to make different shapes with your energy. My teacher and I will play games where she makes a certain shape in my hand and I have to guess what that shape is. She also can send her energy out of specific fingers. Visualize how fingers look as they type on a keyboard, or play a piano. She can make different strengths of energies from those individual fingers, and acting as though she is playing the piano prick your hand at precise spots, to where you only feel her energy where she just pricked you, like with a needle.

As I said earlier, it is very addictive. It is unlike any other human feeling you have ever felt. The first time I experienced it, the first thought that raced through my mind was “I’m home.”

You can also practice with yourself. Use the same technique, only instead of sending to someone else send to your own receiving hand. I use this practice personally, and usually end up playing with my own personal “beach ball” of energy.

It will further cement to you the power of your own spirit, mind and body. It can help to cleanse yourself. Just as doing strength training or exercise is good your body, energy work is good for your mind and soul.

Try it out and let me know your experience with it!

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What IS an Indigo Child?

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Indigo Child:

"What IS an 'indigo child?' - BY an Indigo Child
Part I

A new reader posed the question, 'What is an indigo child?' What a fantastic question! I will do my best to clearly and concisely answer the question, both with my experience and with outside references. In order to understand the full scope of things, I will be making this a multi part series.

The very BASIC concept of an indigo child is (in my own words): A modern incarnation of an old soul, who is here on Earth in a specific capacity to guide and teach others both through example and communication.

Some of you have never heard the term 'indigo child' before, while others have heard it and dismissed it as wishful thinking by parents of troubled kids, or perhaps an all too easy idea conceived by New Age enthusiasts.

Why is this? I believe it is caused by fear and ego. When someone hears that a child displays understanding beyond their years as well as abilities that most humans are unable to match, an attitude of perceived elitism begins, leading to skepticism.

I will go on record right now with this plain and simple FACT: An indigo child is no different from you or anyone else. The mental, emotional, physical and psychic abilities they display are wonderful and vivid and the exact same things all humans have the ability to do. The difference is indigo's are simply more open and sensitive sensitive to these phenomena than others, and they CHOOSE to follow those feelings.

The term "indigo child" first came into the public eye in the 1982 book Understanding Your Life Through Color by Nancy Ann Tappe, a synesthete and psychic, who claimed to see people's aura's and that of late she was seeing an influx of what she described as "indigo" colored auras, specifically in children.

(I'm sure some are wondering and/or are skeptical about "auras." I will be posting an article on aura's, focusing on what the ancients believed, and what modern science is now discovering.)

An aura simply put is the energy emitted by every living thing. All living things have a certain amount of energy they produce, and an aura is an outward reflection of that energy. Think of it as being able to see your breath on a cold day. You're not breathing any different, but because of the climate, you are able to see carbon dioxide expelled from your body. An aura too is always there, however not everyone has trained their eyes to see it.

As more indigo children were observed they all began to display qualities and abilities marking them as different from their peers. These unique qualities seemed to be something many indigo children had in common with each other.

The term "indigo child" grew into a trend in 1998 with the publishing of the book The Indigo Children: The New Kids Have Arrived by husband and wife Lee Carroll and Ann Tober.

Since that publication, there have been documented behavioral traits that are common denominators that indigo children exhibit. Some of these are (as stated by Wendy H. Chapman):

1. Have strong self esteem, connection to source
2. Know they belong here until they are told otherwise
3. Have an obvious sense of self
4. Have difficulty with discipline and authority
5. Refuse to follow orders or directions
6. Find it torture to wait in lines, lack patience
7. Get frustrated by ritual-oriented systems that require little creativity
8. Often see better ways of doing things at home and at school
9. Are mostly nonconformists
10. Do no respond to guilt trips, want good reasons
11. Get bored rather easily with assigned tasks
12. Are rather creative
13. Are easily distractable, can do many things at once
14. Display strong intuition
15. Have strong empathy for others or NO empathy
16. Develop abstract thinking very young
17. Are gifted and/or talented, highly intelligent
Are often identified or suspected of having ADD or ADHD, but can focus when they want to
18. Are talented daydreamers and visionaries
19. Have very old, deep, wise looking eyes
20. Have spiritual intelligence and/or psychic skills
21. Often express anger outwardly rather than inwardly and may have trouble with rage
22. Need support to discover themselves
23. Are here to change the world - to help us live in greater harmony and peace with one another and to raise the vibration of the planet

In my opinion, many of those traits are something common among kids in general. Kids will be kids, and at times they all act restless, astound adults with the wisdom they speak and exhibit creative and other gifts from an early age.

If I could point out a few of the more pertinent characteristics, they would be issues with authority, refusing to follow orders, the frustration at ritual oriented systems, intelligence and their psychic skills. On a side note, I have yet to meet another indigo who did not have very captivating, intense almost hypnotizing eyes and spirit about them.

There are also traits that I would add to that list (as seen in other lists you may come across). These would be problems in school, both socially and academically. A constant notion and feelings of a grander purpose, something they personally need to do, but don't know what it is. Displaying pronounced perception of people they encounter, e.g. reading emotions and intent very well from a young age.

As an indigo begins to awaken and embrace themselves these common traits displayed begin to grow into specific abilities, based on each one's purpose or "job" and skills they've developed in other lives.

These can be such things as precognitive dreams and/or visions, empathic abilities, extra sensitivity to and communication with spirits, mind reading, energy control and telekinesis, to name just a few.

Putting myself in your shoes, reading this for the first time, I am sure there is a mixture of skepticism and questions. My guess is that part of you is intrigued and excited to read more, while another, perhaps slightly more dominant side, questions the legitimacy of the statements I've made.

Well perhaps I can put this to you in a bit of a different way. Imagine yourself back in say the 50's. Education is on the rise. People are buying television sets, there is a telephone in every house and there is grand amount of new music coming out. America is in the midst of the Cold War. There are new new sub cultures arising and the ever expanding issue of civil rights. This is the world you know. Every issue relevant to your life is before you.

Now what if someone came to you and said they had an invention that will change your life. It will change and enhance the way you communicate with others, the way you do business even the very economy itself. This device would give you the ability to talk on the phone from anywhere you wanted. The car, in a park, on a mountain, on a boat, and that the telephone device would even be smaller than the phone you're currently using. This life changing technological advancement will even be so affordable that every man woman and child will be able to afford their own. What would your reaction be?

Some would embrace. Some would dismiss. However, today, in 2008, the cell phone is a major part of our society.

The same is true with the message and abilities that indigo's are here to spread. What may seem far fetched, fantasy or off in the too distant future is actually right in front of you.

If I can take another stab at what you're thinking, perhaps it goes something like this:
"Ok, lets say for sake of argument all this is true. Indigo children do exist and display behavior and traits that set them apart. So then how did they get here, where did they come from, why are they here and what does that have to do with me?"

If you have any of those questions my friend, then you must stay tuned and read Part II in the series. In the next articles we will discuss these questions, as well as scientific indicators correlating with this information, specifically human DNA. Yes that's right...science is now discovering things that have been known for years, but because it was unproven with a microscope, it was dismissed as simply myth, until now.



Lovingly,
feenx

~May your feet always step forward on your path~

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