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What IS an Indigo Child? – BY an Indigo Child - Part II

Posted by feenx

What IS an Indigo Child? – BY an Indigo Child

Part II:

Indigo Awakening: Welcome to the Matrix



Man of you have seen the movie The Matrix Any who haven’t I strongly recommend seeing it.

The process that you have started, or may begin at some point, is much like what is described and portrayed in the first Matrix movie.

As Neo stands in a crowded club, waiting for something to happen, in his first encounter with Trinity she tells him, “The truth is out there, Neo. It's looking for you and it will find you, if you want it to.”

How many of us have felt that, many times, throughout our life? Something, a truth, an answer that is so close we can almost taste it, yet it remains aloof.

What I’d like to do now is insert a portion of The Matrix script. At this point in the film it is the first face to face encounter Neo has with Morpheus, and I feel it sets a good mood for our topic.



MORPHEUS
I imagine, right now, you must be
feeling a bit like Alice, tumbling
down the rabbit hole?

NEO
You could say that.

MORPHEUS
I can see it in your eyes. You
have the look of a man who accepts
what he sees because he is
expecting to wake up.

A smile, razor-thin, curls the corner of his lips.


MORPHEUS
Ironically, this is not far from
the truth. But I'm getting ahead
of myself. Can you tell me, Neo,
why are you here?

NEO
You're Morpheus, you're a legend.
Most hackers would die to meet
you.

MORPHEUS
Yes. Thank you. But I think we
both know there's more to it than
that. Do you believe in fate, Neo?

NEO
No.

MORPHEUS
Why not?

NEO
Because I don't like the idea that
I'm not in control of my life.

MORPHEUS
I know exactly what you mean.

Again, that smile that could cut glass.

MORPHEUS
Let me tell you why you are here.
You are here because you have the
gift.

NEO
What gift?

MORPHEUS
I've watched you, Neo. You do not
use a computer like a tool. You
use it like it was part of
yourself. What you can do inside
a computer is not normal. I know.
I've seen it. What you do is
magic.

Neo shrugs.

NEO
It's not magic.

MORPHEUS
But it is, Neo. It is. How else
would you describe what has been
happening to you?

He leans forward.

MORPHEUS
We are trained in this world to
accept only what is rational and
logical. Have you ever wondered
why?

Neo shakes his head.

MORPHEUS
As children, we do not separate
the possible from the impossible
which is why the younger a mind is
the easier it is to free while a
mind like yours can be very
difficult.

NEO
Free from what?

MORPHEUS
From the Matrix.

Neo locks at his eyes but only sees a reflection of
himself.

MORPHEUS
Do you want to know what it is,
Neo?

Neo swallows and nods his head.

MORPHEUS

It's that feeling you have had all
your life. That feeling that
something was wrong with the
world. You don't know what it is
but it's there, like a splinter in
your mind, driving you mad,
driving you to me. But what is
it?

The LEATHER CREAKS as he leans
back.

MORPHEUS
The Matrix is everywhere, it's all
around us, here even in this room.
You can see it out your window, or
on your television. You feel it
when you go to work, or go to
church or pay your taxes. It is
the world that has been pulled
over your eyes to blind you from
the truth.

NEO
What truth?

MORPHEUS
That you are a slave, Neo. That
you, like everyone else, was born
into bondage...
... kept inside a prison that you
cannot smell, taste, or touch. A
prison for your mind.

Outside, the WIND BATTERS a loose PANE of glass.

MORPHEUS
Unfortunately, no one can be told
what the Matrix is. You have to
see it for yourself.

NEO
How?

MORPHEUS
Hold out your hands.

In Neo's right hand, Morpheus drops a red pill.

MORPHEUS
This is your last chance. After
this, there is no going back.

In his left, a blue pill.

MORPHEUS
You take the blue pill and the
story ends. You wake in your bed
and you believe whatever you want
to believe.

The pills in his open hands are reflected in the glasses.

MORPHEUS
You take the red pill and you stay
in Wonderland and I show you how
deep the rabbit-hole goes.

Neo feels the smooth skin of the capsules, with the
moisture growing in his palms.

MORPHEUS
Remember that all I am offering is
the truth. Nothing more.
Neo opens his mouth and swallows the red pill. The
Cheshire smile returns.

MORPHEUS
Follow me.


My guess, dear ones, is that as you watched this movie, or even read the words for the first time here, that you get a very familiar sense, a feeling you can’t quite explain.

It is true! Right now you are peeking into the rabbit’s hole, and just not quite sure what to make of it. Following the Matrix parallel imagine yourself as Neo. Sitting there, a foreign voice speaking to you, emotions enveloping your very being…unknown to you by your logical mind, yet familiar to you in a way you can’t quite explain.

This feeling is a combination of several elements. This is the programming in your brain, in fact in the very matter that makes up your body, calling out to you. This is your over soul speaking to you and it is the WEALTH of knowledge gathered from all your past incarnations rising to the surface. And the best part, I say smiling, is that it’s ALL a part of YOU and who “you” are, right NOW.

In this parallel as Neo, imagine that Morpheus is an extension of yourself. You are having a two sided conversation, fact as presented to you against the “facts” you think you know, but feel otherwise about.

As an old soul, by which I mean a soul that has lived on Earth before this moment, you have gained lifetimes of knowledge. Each time that you incarnate, that you are inserted into The Matrix so to speak, you start fresh in the physical realm, yet very developed in the spiritual realm.

For Indigos this can be a very tough life experience. The outer world that you know and see everyone around you operating in, something that you are “supposed” to be a part of, seems foreign to you. You feel out of place. At times even just walking down the street or in a crowd of people you are at odds with those around you, you feel different.

The thoughts that cross your mind and emotions that swell you are unable to explain where they come from, or make any sense of how to apply them.

At times, when your guard is down, you feel as though you will go on to do great things. Not just in a secular sense as this world promotes, such as going to school, having a career and being a successful capitalist. No, you feel as though this fire that burns inside of you, if only able to let it loose, will serve to help the whole world and no one can stop you because your conviction is so strong.

You feel there is always more you must do. Many accomplishments, big and small, you pass over as not enough.

It is as if you are in a foreign country. Everyone bustles around you speaking a language that you just don’t quite understand, and if only people would listen, and you, the REAL you, could speak things would suddenly be different.

Have you ever felt that way? If so, then believe me, you are not alone.

Why is this? This is because, to use the Matrix parallel again, there is a program that you have written for yourself, and it specifically requires you to feel this way.

That’s right. You are in fact a human alarm clock, ticking away until the appropriate time when your internal alarm goes off, and you begin to feed yourself with the knowledge you hold from other lives. This knowledge is immeasurable. It is information that, just like you felt but couldn’t explain, can and does change the world.

How so? Again, reference the Matrix. Neo was brought out of the Matrix by those who were aware of the reality. They put him in a place to show him. They taught him what they had learned. What happened? The very things that he was “learning” he began to excel, and exceed at.

You are living in a spiritual matrix. The world and it’s religions and politics and power has conditioned all of us to believe something, to call it reality, when in all facts of the matter it is nothing more than a farce.

The love, the knowledge, the pure intent and the yearning for connection and the power that you hold is the reality. As an Indigo you are here to usher in a new level of thought, a new level of emotion, a new level of connectedness that until now people refused to accept.

That is why you, yes YOU, CHOSE to be here. At this place, at this time. At some point in your history you have the conscious CHOICE that this is what you wanted to do. You would not be here otherwise. Which is why, until you do what you set out to, there is a hole within yourself that can’t be filled with anything else.

Unfortunately, waking up to our spiritual path is not as easy as simply taking a pill. It is something that usually is preceeded by life dilemmas and/or changes. We begin on a path when in fact we don’t know where we’re stepping. Perhaps it is opening our minds to new thoughts, new teachings or new beliefs. It could be growth as a person, such as overcoming an addiction, a secular life course, discontinuing a bad relationship (romantic or otherwise).

Many people find themselves at a life crossroads. Some choose to change. Some choose to carry on. Neither is right nor wrong. It is about the individual, and choice.

When one fully chooses, as in from the very and deepest definition of who they are, to change and open up, that is when you are opening your door. Your alarm clock is going off, screaming at you in fact, to WAKE UP and see that things are DIFFERENT than what you’ve come to accept. What people tell you is real. What society, the masses, the great herd of humans accept simply as how things are.

When that happens, as a very old and wise Indigo recently told me with a contagious smirk on her young face, “It’s a wild ride isn’t it?”

So my dear friend, welcome to your spiritual matrix! Once you take that step, there is no going back. It is a decision we all must make. In fact not making a decision, or saying “I’ll wait and see what happens,” is choosing to do nothing. There is no right and wrong. No black and white. No good and evil.

In this sense…it is all about you and that alarm clock you set. Are you going to wake up, or are you going to keep hitting snooze?


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Spiritual and Religious Beliefs

Posted by feenx

Greetings!

Recently a good friend and I got on the topic of religious and spiritual beliefs. She had recently “fallen away” from the beliefs she was raised with, non denominational Christianity. I asked what she believes now, here’s her reply:

I'm still in a holding pattern as far as my beliefs. I would like to think there is something bigger out there and sometimes well alot of times I send a prayer out because it does give me a peace of mind. It's almost like I give the worry away by sending it out in a prayer. and I believe it is important to love all people no matter your differences. Kindness of heart and humility. I am always on a path of growth and recognize that others are to. I try in every situation to handle in a good way, in a loving way. I try to be more conscious of Mother earth and recycle. So I guess those are some of my main beliefs. I guess more rules to live by. But I don't define my spirituality by a denomination. I enjoy reading about Buhdda and his lessons because I feel they hold the true meaning of love and not judgement. I dunno.


What do you believe?

My beliefs were not summed up so briefly, and still felt that I had not yet scratched the surface. Perhaps I need to work on being a bit more brief. Here is my reply:

Well I believe that there is a higher power, however as humans in this existence we have not come to a place to know this higher power and develop the relationship that most label as a relationship with God. What humans feel that they equate that with is a spiritual relationship with themselves, and the rest of humanity.

I believe we, as a human race, are all connected. It is essentially like a switchboard, that though we all have our individual buttons, we are all connected the same. As such, we have the choice whether to connect to what is beyond that switchboard, or to each other. Some choose to do, some don’t.

I believe that what people feel as spirituality, when they have that innate sense within them that feel is the hand of God, it is actually the divine within themselves, and the connection with others that they are feeling. Based on Jesus’ teachings, same with Buddha just different cultures (in fact there are many that hold that Jesus and Buddha were essentially the same type of beings, those that had completed their path) the gnostics taught that what Jesus was referring to was actually to open and get in touch with that piece of divine in all of us, and that doing so would bring gnosis (knowledge). That knowledge then leads to further enlightenment as you begin a relationship, of sorts, with your higher self. Imagine human spirituality as an onion. The Sunday churchgoers and “Jesus saves” enthusiasts, spiritually speaking, are in the kitchen chopping onions. When their eyes water they equate that to being touched by Jesus or God. In reality that is simply the first layer, and if they choose to keep peeling away those layers what they would eventually find at the core...is themselves.

The potential once this core is found is limitless. Human potential is beyond what even so called experts can fathom. We use a fraction of our brains, in comparison to the universe and the earth itself, humans are infantile. One of the biggest downfalls of humans is their arrogance.

George Lucas made a wonderful point about this in an interview I recently saw. He said if you take human progression and put it on a scale, from the earliest humans to now, he equated it at starting from 1, until now being at say about 5. People look back and see all the progress made and feel good about themselves at much of a higher being they are now, that much closer to 10. Except...the scale goes to a million.

Lucas said that the “cave men” thought they knew it all. When that wheel was invented well then that was all they needed. Humans now think they know it all.

I feel that people look back and see the steps they’ve taken, and because the steps are so far beyond what earlier man could’ve imagined, well than that must mean humans are getting close to their full potential. What is a human full potential? No one knows. We let our minds settle on what is a full potential simply because someone tells us that’s as far as we can go, or because no one has gone any farther. Both of which are futile arguments.

E.g. Christopher Columbus. The entire world, including all of it’s best minds, KNEW the earth was flat.
E.g. The Earth. Years ago, humans KNEW the Earth was the center of the universe.
E.g. Science. Years ago scienctists KNEW there was only three dimensions. Now they’ve discovered what, upwards of 11 I believe.

So why are humans so stubborn to keep believing that this current form, physical, mental, emotional and spiritual is the best they can accomplish? Well...because they’re humans. And as much potential as there is, right now that’s all it is, potential.

I believe there will come a time when the current way of operating will no longer work. That a change in how humanity operates will be forced, whether it’s wanted or not. Many will be receptive to this. And many wont.

Those who are receptive of this will begin to, or continue to peel away those onion layers. As they humans as a whole will begin to change, and with that change will come better understanding, better knowledge, and true enlightenment.

Once that happens, call it what you want, nirvana, nothingness, a spirit life....whatever label you want. But certainly not the end of existence. In fact, I would venture to say that humans understanding of say nirvana will be completely different at that point.

The way I see it, right now humans are looking for a diploma thinking they’re about to graduate, and they merely just got out of kindergarten. They are looking to answer questions, such as why am I here, what is my purpose, where do we go when we die, is there a supreme, divine, authority in the universe...all of which are excellent and valid questions. But they’re asking them with the physical and spiritual minds of a kindergartner. They are neither ready nor willing to yet accept the reality of the cosmos, which they are a part of.

I believe, in short, that in time that will change. And the definitions of “faith” and “beliefs” will be re-written.

So you asked me what I believe in. I believe in me. I believe in you. I believe in the collective, and the energy it maintains. And because it’s a collective and not a single unit, that means choice.

So I believe in my choice, and I believe in your choice.

I would like to open up a discussion about each individuals beliefs. What are they, and why?

New Age Spirituality, Energy, Reincarnation and Healing

Posted by feenx

Indigo Child Healing and Spiritual Aids

Greetings! I am feenx, a light worker (or you may use the term Indigo child). In my journey on the path of enlightenment more and more I find myself intrigued and eager to discuss topics that many consider taboo, are difficult to discuss but that yet bring us all closer together. There is nothing that we shouldn't be able to discuss and share with each other.

My first thought and intention in starting this blog was three fold:

1. Create a place where there can be active and open discussion on spiritual and emotional matters. This can be anything from religious dogma, organized religion, self-spirituality, incarnations, The Grid, Over Souls, psychic and other abilities, Indigo and Crystal children/adults, trauma recovery (e.g. physical/sexual/mental abuse), mental disorders including/specifically Dissociative Identity Disorder (D.I.D., formerly Multiple Personality Disorder, M.P.D.), family and romantic relationships, questions and advice.

2. To supply information for readers to do with as they wish. Many blogs on such topics have a tendency to present their information as fact. I present it as neither fact nor fiction, simply food for thought because ultimately YOU are the only one who can decide what is right for you and you alone.

3. Perhaps most important is the goal to invoke a flush of the senses. We all have a degree of curiosity, child like wonder, perhaps even a spiritual sense of the universe in which we live. Some are more tapped into this than others are, but every single human has questions, hopes and dreams about the vastness we are all connected to and a part of.

I feel that the combination of these three elements provides a fantastic aid to healing, enlightenment and growth. Openly discussing the topics described above helps us put our experiences into perspective while also giving those experiences a useful opportunity to help others. This by far is my utmost goal.

How though can this information help to heal? "Heal" is such a broad term. More specifically I feel the information we can present on this blog can inform, give comfort and hope, perhaps help you feel less alone and ultimately can help all of us on our journey to heal not only emotionally, but mentally and spiritually as well. A by product of this information can also enable healing in a religious manner. This by no means constitutes healing "spiritually," as religion and spirituality are two separate things.

I firmly believe that spirituality is something different and unique for each individual, and not something a mere writer should inhibit or presume to be an authority on in any fashion.

In my opinion for anyone who comes from a highly religious (or other severe influential background), to enable healing one must look at themselves objectively, with honesty, rather than through the glasses religion forces you to wear. Doing so is essentially looking in the mirror while wearing a mask. There is only so much that can be discerned about oneself when there are limitations, definitions and restrictions about what "self" is from the very beginning.

Dictionary.com defines self as "a person or thing referred to with respect to complete individuality: one's own self."

Just like with any repair project, you must be taken apart before you can be put back together. It may only be one element or part of you, or it may be the entire system, but with those religious glasses removed, even if just temporarily, you facilitate yourself to heal more effectively.

Furthermore, it is not my intention to promote or denounce any emotional or spiritual state, personal morals, belief system, or religion.

When I first started speaking of and writing on such topics my parents, who are very dedicated Jehovah's Witnesses, stated that it is likely my perspective of Jehovah's Witnesses and organized religion as a whole is skewed, based on my childhood experiences. This could very well be true. However, that does not mean that my perspective is incorrect. Just as someone who survives a brutal car accident is weary of driving, so am I a survivor of a brutal childhood environment, weary of abuse, religion and our collective mental status. As a society, do we become so accustomed to everyday dangers that we have in effect desensitized ourselves, and therefore do not realize the potential harm in our lives? Are everyone's experiences with family and religion the same? No. Does the lack of a bad experience mean one's environment was only good, and those who see things differently are simply misled by an anomaly in environment? I ask you to simply consider the information presented and decide for yourself.

We all are influenced in our thought and emotions by something, whether it's religion, the Bible, philosophy, literature, democracy, capitalism, etc. However, when we take such influences at their word as being the one true and "right" course of action, especially when it affects how we live our daily lives, DAILY lives, we are turning our back on making a conscious decision.

This holds true in therapy, healing and spirituality. Before one can truly heal or grow, a decision must be made to do so. For some it's a conscious decision. For others it's an unconscious one. In fact, they may not realize they've made the decision to start their healing or spiritual journey until they find themselves on the road to recovery and growth and refuse to stop.

Whichever ones circumstance is we have all done the same thing, we've chosen to strive for emotional and spiritual health, regardless the consequences. No matter the change within us that may occur, the fear of the unknown or the discoveries of things buried deep inside our minds and hearts, we have all chosen to change.

With that conviction equals responsibility. We are truly responsible, perhaps for the first time ever, for ourselves. No more can we with a blind eye accept "life" and "happiness" or "unhappiness" with the definitions imposed on us by so-called higher powers. We are on our own path, some long, some short, but all of them for the betterment of self. Without this conviction, the goal of truth for each of us, the world is essentially one big sandbox to stick your head in. There are many things to occupy you, but you'll never know who it really is you're occupying.

Therefore, the intention of this blog is for you to come away with a desire to truly heal, to grow or to continue on the path you've already started. My hope is that you feel a sense of accomplishment and much self love. We all deserve to be happy. Let me say that again, as it will be a focal point throughout. YOU DESERVE to be truly HAPPY.

What that happiness actually means is up to you.

feenx works from home while maintaining a blog discussing the above topics as well as those submitted by readers.

see more at: http://indigoinsight.blogspot.com